it sounds like you've outgrown the country... money, image having the most followers on Instagram... it's gets relatively less fulfilling... things in Western countries: meaningful discussion, health and longevity, individualism and entrepreneurialism become increasingly of more value. I'm always reminded of the Thai word for evil 'chûua' is very closely associated with deviate/ divert time from the 'normal' (used in demarcating time temporarily e.g. chûua mohng).