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Hello friend. I've quit for 12 years now. I didn't have a problem with alcohol... Just my father was a sad, violent depressed drunk. I decided to quit alcohol to make a show of strength to my father that I could quit where he couldn't. My father died a miserable alcoholics death. My first time quitting lasted about 1/2 hour and then I started drinking again? I would get so insanely angry being so weak-willed at not being able to quit. I went through this iteration 8. Times over 2 months before I began successfully my 12 years of sobriety and continuing...

There were signposts along the way. In the first couple of months, anxiety attacks, extreme anger, depression, craves. Til finally they melted away. I created a list of what could I pursue if I was sober. My education... When I was a kid I was always drunk or at this party or another. I had party friends who graduated college, but that wasn't my destiny.

I like to drink, and then I fall asleep. I needed a bit more to truly say I had a life with accomplishments and goals.

Friend, you must quit the beer. There's no half-assign about sobriety. I'm moving back to Thailand in about two years...

If I start drinking...(?). Maybe

Do what's right for you.

I grieve for the passing of your friend. God bless... D