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I'm still here , just trying to take in all the advice and suggestions. A friend who smokes cannabis , just gave me some biscuits ( cookies ) with cannabis in them , so tonight I'm going to give them a try, as I type this my mind is running over all the things that I need to soon do . A big thanks to every one for your help which is really appreciated . I will post back after trying the cannabis biscuits .

Sorry this may sound like I'm rambling on and this may sound like a '' pull your self together '' sort of post , but to me this situation is real and its becoming a nightmare. Going back many years , ever since I moved to Thailand and got married to my wonderful Thai wife, my mind / thinking process has steadily began to become what seems constantly overloaded . Every day now as soon as I wake up my thoughts go straight into overdrive, I'm thinking about this and I'm thinking about that , what if this happens or what if that happens or I have to go and do this or I have to do that . My mind is endlessly thinking and in most cases worrying about my life in general. This curse is effecting my sleep pattern , where getting a good nights sleep is now a luxury. As I lay in bed trying to go to sleep, my mind is still mulling over things that I know need to be done the next day , or planning on how to achieve some thing. My home desk is full of to do lists. To try and help sort of calm me down , Ive tried natural supplements. Ive watched endless YouTube videos , to no avail. I now seem to be more susceptible to medical complaints, which I'm wondering if is due to my immune system being low . Ive also started to eat more comfort foods, my mind being in a state of what seems constantly overly active, is wearing me out. I don't drink alcohol , and I cannot exercise due to a foot issue. I must admit that I'm not that keen in talking to a medical professional . I was wondering if there was some thing drug related that I could take on a daily basis , that may help in calming my mind down . I'm in my late 70's and feel that at my time of life I should by now be enjoying my golden years , but sadly my mind just won't let me rest in peace .