Just think about how dumb that idea is when you are living a life in a foreign country by choice, and only because it's a better life than in your own country, and when you can leave at any time. Just another over privileged, self-entitled twaat.
But if you really feel that way, when your life is already jingle bells, then that sounds like severe mental health issues, and that you are way past your expiration date on living in a foreign country in the developing world.