Pattayabeerbacon

Just now, geoffbezoz said:

Well you seem so utterly depressed by your own situation but you do have to look on the bright side.  You are continually posting on TVF on this thread of yours so presumably you are not too intoxicated, so that's good news - yes ?

This tiny amount of dopamine released from checking internet forum must be enough to block the receptors caused by alcoholics urge to drink.

i know my alcoholic triggers.

1# Pattaya.

2# Fear of Flying.

3# family stress.

4# Over working.

5# peer pressure.

not in that order.

Just now, Uptooyoo said:

Where's the "GoFundMe" promotion?

You cannot "gofundme" a person out of this type of situation , Social anxiety/Alcoholism cannot simply be Fixed by any amount of money, Some people are just unable to fit into society and cannot handle its pressure , No money will fix this.

Just now, remorhaz said:

Being an alcoholic is fine if done in moderation.  Assign yourself a small amount of alcohol at bedtime to drink and don't drink before bedtime.  Bring it down slowly over time so you don't shock your system and try to get it down to two shots which most people can handle long term.  

 

By the way how are you affording internet, rent, alcohol and food?  If you want to not be depressed try hunger and starvation.  These have brought lots out of depression in that they motivate you to work because starvation sucks and is best avoided.  Whoever is paying for your lifestyle at present should stop and you'd be amazed at how quickly those gnawing hunger pangs will suddenly motivate you to get to work.  

Booze in moderation is an improble feat.

I think the problem of today is other peoples judgements, my father is a very judgemental person and very hypocritical.

People are quick to ask , Why? But The answer is often impossible to explain Unless they lived Through my life's struggle they will never know.

 You will never know how the person next to you's day/week/ year/life has been like So its best to show Respect.

Just now, Ctkong said:

Cut the drinking.. drinking heavily fogs the mind and weakens the will . Cut through the fog with clear mind. 

im a born alcoholic, cant help meself.

5 hours ago, BestB said:

Totally agree on alcohol part . It can be a depressant and trigger paranoia as well. Not to mention fried brain .

 

by his nick , I am guessing he is in Pattaya , I know for a fact have AA here, have not gone myself but met a few guys and they seem to stick together 

I left Pattaya for now.

i noticed its mostly lower class thais who battle substance abuse and also alcoholism, The middle class with whom i am now associating might have one beer at night but lead too busy life's, they cannot afford to fall victim to the bottle unlike many of the isaan folk in Pattaya who prefer a lay back lifestyle which opens doors for self medication / Abuse/ heavy alcoholism.

I struggle with confidence, Right nit i could not even get a P4P my self esteem is too low.

Just now, holy cow cm said:

His Dad is still in the game as well and that may be his key. Sounds as if the mum relationship is off a bit. But people as they get old can either get better and more kind, or worse in attitude. I didn't make my way on waiting for an inheritance either. Blood - sweat and perseverance. But I wasn't disappointed either, even though did not want it.

I wouldnt want it from either, I would prefer they showed an interest in my life , which they do not, They only care about money.

Just now, holy cow cm said:

well then at least you may have a nice inheritance to look forward to.

Nah , I doubt that, my grandfather died a few years back, my older brother recieved it all, I didnt get a penny, She didnt even tell me about it.

Just now, BestB said:

I only have few things to say 

 

1. Go to Cambodia and see how life is and all over sudden you will feel blessed even with whatever you have or do not have 

2. I see all your points of how bad life is but did not see anything you had done or attempted to do to improve it 

3. Do not for 1 second assume that you are the only one in bad situation, guy/girl next to you could be sane or even worse. You mentioned some people born lucky with millions , but did it ever occur to you that they may not be happy and have more problems than you. You have nothing so you do not need to worry about loosing nothing , they have everything and need to worry about everything .

 

To appreciate the good you must experience the bad. Without knowing what bad is, how can you identify the good?

 

Seek some medical help, often helps, look into doing some seminars or read books on self development and self understanding and stop concentrating on how bad it is but start concentrating on how to change it. And before you could run , you learned how to walk, but before walking you crawled. 

 

Small goals, small changes , step by step.

 

Getting a dog or even being a volunteer in a shelter may help you greatly and you will realise your life has a meaning , because of you other living being is alive .

 

You will also get to meet lots of new people and dogs make great companions, good to socialise, keep active and responsible. 

i just came from cambodia. i have some local friends there, I get along very well with khmers, They actually told me that about how white people dont stick together and very much understood that i was all alone in the world with no help.

A good example is my mother and father being uninterested in my travels , They are just worried about there own pockets,

my mother never once asked me "Why are you over there?" or "What are you doing over there ?" She just cares about her work, her properties, her money and her assets.

she can be quite two-faced, snobby and evil.

Just now, geoffbezoz said:

Of course if everything you say is true, but from your forum name though I have doubts, then with your state of depression you should seriously consider talking too the Samaritans. A fantastic organisation whose sole role is to help people. You may think life is hard, possibly pointless where you have been dealt a poor hand, but believe me, there are millions in our world a lot worse of than you and have no means of help and support unlike yourself.

Help and support how?

i work a low income job it pays on par with the dole ( uber eats).

I went in for surgery on compassionate grounds to treat a severe medical issue that's preventing me from working full time as i could potentially die if i continue working the field I'n the wrong cercumstance.

 The surgeon proceded to tell me the surgery was 3K Upfront, If i don't have the money , I can't get the surgery simple as that.

i asked my parents if they help, They told me they don't have the money.

Where is the help and support for westerners in the western world?

i dont see it.

Just now, BritManToo said:

Op's life is just the way it is for white males in the western world these days.

Our women won't bang us, and employers won't hire us.

its hopeless, I told my father i dont want to live in Australia because i was lonely and couldn't find a girlfriend, He just told me to keep labouring and stop going to thailand and hold a job.

what am i supposed to do? be a lonely shitkicker for the rest of my days?

im beginning to not give a shit if i live or die, I am already drinking myself to death slowly.

thailand is expensive as u make it, Problem is locals are still greedy and think your rich.

Just now, neeray said:

OP contributes to bad reputation of foreigners. 

Go home please. 

Deny it all you want, Honestly , if i can help the next dude from falling through the cracks then i will, PM me anytime if anyone needs advice.

11 minutes ago, atyclb said:

 

 

have seen many working at beer bars and gogo bars.

Definatly sounds like fun but long term it would affect your mental health badly , Many leave Pattaya for reasons as such.

Just now, dotpoom said:

I think you are making a very valid point...pity it was weakened by the poor attempts at humour on this very serious subject.

thanks 

Just now, sunnyboy2018 said:

What a strange post. As if there are only two career options, teacher or millionaire! In the case of the OP I think its a case of the pot calling the kettle black!

being a millionaire is not a career option

Just now, marin said:

I think you are talking to yourself mate. Been here 30 years and have none of the problems you describe. In fact I have turned into a fitness nut here. Sure as hell in better shape mentally, financially, and physically than when I arrived. You on the other hand have had nothing but problems. Pity that. 

Power to you brother, I wish many follow your path.

i failed , i know what its like to fail in Asia, i am the definition of failure.

I only want future versions of my self to understand the risk of South east asia, Its no longer the 1990s You can't walk in the door and start a life just because you have a western passport , We are treated equally with third world immigrants thanks to globalisation.

Just now, BritManToo said:

Would it be different in a Manchester bedsit?

depends on the budget / Mental state of the individual.

i have seen many seperate cases over here in thailand over the years, Some died here , some went home, some returned and died here.

on individual case is A 40 Y/O londoner living in BKK with Catatonic skitzophrenia, He is was never right in the head but is gradually getting worse as he self medicates on the  dismal 100 quid weekly allowance sent by relatives  is not stretching as far as it used to.

 Last time i saw him he was eating cigarette butts and talking to himself and feeding the local stray cat population,  He would be sectioned the minute he returned to the UK I'm sure. 

1 hour ago, Soikhaonoiken said:

Rich Indians Hahaha,, I was in a bar on 2nd Road Pattaya when a group of Indians about 5 of them came in, ordered 1 beer to share, and only thing they did was hassle the girls to go with them all, when she refused and walked off they had to have a whip round to pay the 90b for the beer before the left, Thailand doesn't need these kind of Tourist and the girls don't need the hassle of them ????

indians only look out for them selfs and there own best interest, the indian hotel/business owners are also awfully paranoid and stingy.