Inversely, I can look at your POST count and wonder what type of life you have. You're so wrong on all things, but you must think that a bad experience many times somehow equals a good experience.
I know quite a few pilots have amassed thousands of hours, and yet they are not good pilots. We call them pilots with 100 hours of experience at a time. They never learn anything beyond the 100 hours, and they do it repeatedly. Your post above shows you feel some superiority for wasting so much of your life posting here.
I wouldn't brag about it.
Start a GoFundMe, and I'll be the first to contribute. You need serious help.