If you really want to know what it might be like to return home, to your home country, again, after a very extended stay abroad, then, maybe, read something like this:
https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/1964/07/18/the-swimmer
Not me.
I do not care about my home country, first.
Nationalism is not first on my list.
I would rather care about cowgirls...in the sand....than nationalism...