Then go find somewhere more suitable for you Chris -- I dont mean to be impolite when I say that, but it's amazing that you put with being unhappy--with just one life. I had 20 years in the UK and moved on--12 years in NZ--(found it a little to conservative in 60s/70s) move-20 years on Oz, great place especially for a young person---as in most western places as you age, you find you are becoming a little invisible in certain circles. Move on, Tried for shorter time in Cambodia, PI, Vietnam etc been in Thailand 25 years = Very Happy, But , if I wasn't even at 77 honestly, I would start to look around---just one life Chris------Just one life.