I think the OP is saying that as he's about to embark on a wondrous adventure of high finance and deep committed love with his 'businesswoman'' girlfriend and looking to pass on any blame before it inevitably goes tits up....

That I may have even understood this drivel worries me deeply.....must be the Pear cider....

I don't know what I'm doing but crowds avoid me.

Me too! But then when I shower they are back again. I wonder if it's a pattern!

The OP posted and left everything to us. Where is he now?

I want to see his reaction on the comments against his post while he is "high"

hey OP here, yeah I laughed so much at all the comments , thanks for the advice, no sarcasm intended,

yeah i scare my self some times , I feel like I am the subconscious mind thats the dominant being controlling the body, when I get high I actually become normal

I find I have real severe trouble completing task because I mainly operate in habitual movement, I cant really explaib these things that well

my wife is truly amazed at how normal I become, when in high

they always call me memento

I feel like a dog some times when I talk to people I read their subconscious mannerism like a book, if they dont like me its painted right on their face

im trying to figure what is wrong with me

but I like the way I am because I feel normal people are extremely habitual and wont meander from their opinions

they live buy the language they grew uo witj and cant explain things in another way

William, very interesting. Why don't you tell us a little about yourself including age and nationality, it will help us better understand

William, very interesting. Why don't you tell us a little about yourself including age and nationality, it will help us better understand

Perhaps a recent pharmaceutical history would help, too.

In principle, I would commend the OP's suggestion that he should stop hanging around with wastrels and scoundrels. Beyond that, I was baffled. Perhaps his intellect is higher than mine; obviously time for another Tiger

SC

I don't know what I'm doing but crowds avoid me.

It must be because you're the hardest man in your own imagination!

hey OP here, yeah I laughed so much at all the comments , thanks for the advice, no sarcasm intended,

yeah i scare my self some times , I feel like I am the subconscious mind thats the dominant being controlling the body, when I get high I actually become normal

I find I have real severe trouble completing task because I mainly operate in habitual movement, I cant really explaib these things that well

my wife is truly amazed at how normal I become, when in high

they always call me memento

I feel like a dog some times when I talk to people I read their subconscious mannerism like a book, if they dont like me its painted right on their face

im trying to figure what is wrong with me

but I like the way I am because I feel normal people are extremely habitual and wont meander from their opinions

they live buy the language they grew uo witj and cant explain things in another way

Don't worry,I'm sure you'll be fine once you get back to your own planet!