Cameroni

No. You haven't. Only one AN member has seen her in real life, and he's posted upthread she's a solid 9. But the thing is when you get to know her, her attractive personality propels her higher still. Girls like this are very rare. Truly attractive girls, I mean, who can reach those parts other's can't. You meet them once every 10 years. She's like this. She can't be replaced easily. i'd have to wait another ten years. I don't have the time. I doubt your ex could be more attractive, but as for the lying, I'm starting to think it's just normal now. It doesn't even surprise me anymore. It seems telling the truth is the anomaly. No, my ex wife was 100% loyal at all times, as far as I know. I just really like this girl. Like I said, I don't think she can be replaced easily.

No, he just looks disgusting, obese, bloated round face, colours his hair with that fake blonde-brown mix boy-band characters had in the 90s. Of course now he broke his hand and foot he's hobbling around like a crippled beast. He's just so unattractive.

You're too kind, maybe it will be a disaster to see her again. I think the magic will be gone. At the moment though, I have the typical symptoms of someone who's been broken up with, you want her even more. And the worst she's telling me she wants to be with me. Yesterday again she said if I come to Phuket she'd be with me night and day. I'll probably go to Phuket before 9 Feb.

Yes, my capacity for suffering has always been greater than other men's. I really don't know. I suspect we will meet on 9 February. Obviously if she doesn't show, it would be the end. But even then. I've been playing the same cruel game with Filipina virgin. Telling her I'll bring her over for more than a year now. She's still talking to me. Indeed the best way to get over another girl is to go out with a girl. So I have made a date with a very attractive girl for Sunday, who speaks excellent English, has a career and seems very interesting. Let's see.

Look, you're talking to someone who has spent the last 3 years flying in girls from all over Thailand. So you don't need to tell me "what's out there". I know very well what's out there. The fact is 90% of girls do not make the cut. Even if they're cute, they have a list of issues, too cold, to shy, too neurotic, too criminal, the majority of the girls, even if they have decent looks really don't cut it. Phuket Girl is the kind of girl that comes along every 10 years or so. Yes, she's not unique, I had a similar girl, one that can reach those parts other's can't, but these girls are very rare. They come along only every 10 years. So you can't just replace Punket Girl. It's not possible. Yes, she was untrustworthy, unkind and had many other flaws, but when you look at the whole package, she's one of those once in 10 years kind of girls. I'd rather rip my own eyes out with a blunt fork. 28 is my hard limit. I know. Don't you think I'm aware her attempts to soothe me by saying she is not having sex with the monster are unlikely to be grounded in reality? It's unthinkable they won't have sex in 2 weeks plus .Which is what makes this so torturous. And I will never. Ever. Know the truth for sure.

Yes it is foolish. I don't know myself what it will be like if I see her again. Knowing all she did. How unkind she was. How she lied. That she had sex with this 63 year old. Went on Tinder again. Added another 3 guys on Insta. If I look in her eyes, I don't know what I would feel then. How could it be the same? Would contempt not raise its ugly head, my contempt for what she did? Resentment. Distrust. All this would surely destroy any chance of a good relationship. The sex itself, I mean she'd have had sex with him before she came to see me the first time. It's the same guy. No difference in that regard. But this feels very different to Bangkok girl's betrayal. When I found that out she was in my house, the betrayal was in the past. This, however, is very different. This feels like the Truman Show of cruelty, every day I wake up to think she's sleeping with this guy. And this is supposed to go on for 2 more weeks. That's another reason why I don't want to go to Phuket. It would be like entering the set of this Truman show of cruelty. Sure the beaches could be nice, but I'd be thinking "who did she walk on these beaches with before? Did she walk with the 63 year old here?". I already disliked Phuket before, imagine now. But really I have to go there to reduce the amount of days she's in bed with this monster. Yesterday she told me she will not sleep in his bed. She will sleep on the couch. She'll tell him she has a headache and doesn't want sex. So late at night she texts me the Austrian told her "No", she has to sleep in bed with him anyway. When I found out I did not reply. I just went away for hours. Then I saw she'd sent so many texts. "No sex", "nooooooo", ten crying emojis in a row. Even texted me on Insta when I didn't read on Whatsapp. More crying emojis. She thought she'd lost me. And the truth is I'm a fool for writing to her still. It's a terrible situation. This girl is either in financial straits and went to this guy again to live in Phuket and make money, or she really cares for him, which is hard to believe as he's hideous and 63. But either way it's like a reality show of betrayal, that renews every day. She says there's no sex now, but even if she would not initiate or reciprocate sex, this 63 year old monster has the world's sexiest woman lying next to him. There's no way he wouldn't roll over, paw her, kiss her, hug her, put his hands between her legs. And I know her, she orgasms faster than Bolt runs the 100 metres. There's no way they would not have sex in two weeks. I really wonder, if I would see her again what I would feel. Surely all the magic would be gone. But love always hopes, love always perseveres.

I vote for 2(c)

Projects hadn't started then. Now they have. No, she would be in my hotel without a doubt if I go there. Day and night. That was her plan. My plan was she comes yesterday or today. Since she persisted in not coming and instead still says 9 Feb, without any good reason, I have half a mind to throw her to the dogs. She's really shown me she doesn't really care to be with me, and on top is sleeping with this hideous monster. By then the projects will be finished. Of course she wouldn't "ghost me". She's texting me every day. Day and night. But it's a huge production, I'd be unable to work, and as soon as I go, she's back in his place anyway. I don't even like Phuket. Been there. She should be coming HERE.

My work involves a monitor, a microphone, it's not really possible to lug that around. In theory there are ways around it. But I'm quite unhappy with her at the moment, because she's sleeping with this old guy. Okay, she now says she will sleep in the living room on the couch, and tell him she has a headache, so there's no sex, but I'm very unhappy about this whole situation. Phuket and her is distraction recipe anyway, I really wouldnt' get any work done. And what bothers me is if I go there, after I leave she'd go back to his condo again. So I would much prefer if she comes here. I would even take her on a holiday to Chonburi then. But what annoys me is that she still insist she will not come. Even though I said I'd fly her to Phuket to vote. There's really no good reason to stay there. Not the vote. And certainly not to save money as she claims. So I'm thinking the worst about her reasons for not leaving there until the 9th. This whole notion that she wants to not come here because of a vote, is totally incredulous anyway. Like a vote would stop anyone to see the person they want to be with. Total nonsense. Not even close. No, because she has BPD.

She really loves this place, Phuket. The beaches. I gather the condo she's at is nothing special, a normal condo. But the vibe there is just her thing. She claims she is in the condo almost all day long, except for shopping. As of today, I'm told she'll be sleeping in the living room. So there's no sex with the Austrian. Yah, it's wonderful to be a beautiful woman. Live rent free. Get money for sex, and then open the hand when you need an iphone or clothes. It beggars belief really.

She does. She asked me several times to come to Phuket. However, I have two big work projects I need to focus on. If I was with her I wouldn't get any work done. Why would I even give a flying fk about that? I'm seriously trying to understand her. Like I said, there was this pattern of her changing plans like ALL the time. Not just now, even when she was living with me. It was A in the morning and D in the afternoon. That's a symptom of BPD. Then I looked at the others. It all fits.

She did. Several times. She really wants me to come to Phuket. You're confusing your disorders. BPD is "Borderline Personality Disorder". And she almost certainly suffers from it. My first clue were her constantly changing plans. Even when she was living with me.

Well, it's certainly better to have loved and lost this particular girl. At her best, she is a man's dream. At her worst, she's a nightmare. It was a magnificent 40 days. But I'm paying a high price now. I was careful with financial resources and investment. But I massively over-invested emotionally with a person, who may be unable to feel emotions in a normal way. You live and learn. We also have limited emotional resources. How to ration these is the hardest. I tried that with BKK girl, and didn't work out very well.

She does, but only on 9th Feb. Supposedly. Yup, she's up then down, on then off, light then dark, she has BPD. It's a rollercoaster gal.

No, but I felt like I was being analyzed like an entry at Crufts. I made a rather clever joke. When she got it she replied "You have a sense of humour. This is good." She seems rather serious herself. No, no, this girl has very light strawberry blonde hair, nothing ginger about it. More like Palomino meets light brown.

She does have BPD. All the symptoms are there. Fear of Abandonment: Intense efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment. [When she saw me talking to other girls, that was it, she fled to avoid abandonment] Unstable Relationships: A pattern of intense, unstable relationships, rapidly shifting from idealization to devaluation (all good or all bad). [all her relationships were massively unstable] Identity Disturbance: A significantly unstable self-image or sense of self, leading to sudden changes in goals, values, or opinions. [Her goals, plans, values and opinions were always changing] Impulsivity: Reckless or damaging impulsive behaviors like overspending, risky sex, binge eating, substance misuse, or reckless driving. [Bingo, she ate like a horse and had sex without condoms, overspending all there] Self-Harm/Suicidality: Recurrent suicidal threats, gestures, or self-harming behavior (e.g., cutting). [she had scars on her wrists she said were from a motorcycle accident] Emotional Instability: Intense, rapidly shifting moods (e.g., severe sadness, irritability, anxiety) lasting hours to a few days, often triggered by interpersonal stress. [her moods were epic] Chronic Emptiness: Persistent feelings of emptiness, boredom, or meaninglessness. [she often sat on the couch doing nothing just feeling bored] Inappropriate Anger: Intense, uncontrollable anger, frequent displays of temper, sarcasm, or physical fights. [she initiated physical pay fights with me constantly, would hit me in pubilc, sudden anger outbursts if you wanted to take a photo] Oh I know, I was handicapped by a tsunami of oxytocin and couldn't think straight. She got attached however. Doesn't want to let me go.

No, not Ginger, a very light strawberry blonde. Very tall, very slender, seriously attractive girl. Maybe a bit too intelligent and too professional. But let's see.

I gave her real love. I gave her real emotions. She had everything when she was here. Except full honesty, perhaps. And that was crucial to her, because she has BPD. People with BPD are very black and white, if you lie to them you are bad. And there's only good and bad. Very black and white. She says she's looking for someone with a "good heart". What she's really looking for is someone who is consistent, whom she can trust, who will never lie to her. Of course reality doesn't work like that. Which is why BPD people have such a hard time. What a rollercoaster it was with her though. Heaven and hell. Yes, it does seem love means nothing to her. She can withhold emotions easily. Because she has BPD. She's not normal. She's actually not that crazy for money. I mean I sent her 6000 baht. She could have just kept it. But she sent it back.

Nothing is finished. Phuket Girl is still telling me she wants to come to meet me on 9th Feb. Walk on the beach with me. And I'm not talking about the future. I gave her a chance to leave Phuket, but obviously there's no future with someone who is sleeping with a 63 year old and at the same time playing on Tinder. She admitted herself. And I saw her add 3 new guys on Insta whom she found on tinder. It' s this social media and dating apps. People get addicted to the texting. That's what I had with BKK girl and Filipina virgin as well. Phuket Girl just loves being on the apps and texting people.

That was a different vote. Sisaket was about seeing her mother for her birthday. It was there she decided to go back to her ex in Phuket. So I will always hate Sisaket now. She hadn't actually decided to go back to Phuket the day she left Chiang Mai. She was still asking me to come to Sisaket then. Had I gone, none of this would have happened. It was in Sisaket that her decision to return to her ex was taken.

But only if you registered to vote in the place where you will vote within the required deadline. And she registered within the deadline, to vote in Phuket. Now it's too late. I hope this clears it up for you.

I already did, the deadlines have expired. And they could never vote online. Only register to vote online.

They can't vote online. They can only register TO vote online. And for mail ballots she had to register some time ago, the deadline has expired. She also can't vote in person in CM as she registered to vote in Phuket. Anyway, she's saying the real reason is to save me money, as it would be too expensive for her to fly into Phuket to vote. Which is ironic, Phuket Girl is trying to save me money now.

No, Thais can't vote online in this election. And to vote by mail you had to register for it ages ago. But you're saying she can vote in person in Chiang Mai? Even though she registered in Phuket?

She came back on to say "funny". That she wasn't having sex with the old guy. She's just waiting for the election to be over and she'll come back. If I can wait for her. I told her the election was no reason not to come back today as I said I'd pay for her to go vote in Phuket. At least tell me the real reason why you want to stay in Phuket til the 9th? But nothing. I really dont' think it's the election. There has to be some other reason.