If I could go back to that moment I first saw my wife to be I would still follow through, as we had a good life for some years, but I'd do a lot of things very differently, such as refusing to go live in the village, which was when it started to go wrong.
What I'm asking, is, if you had the chance, would you avoid her completely as too toxic to contemplate, or, was there enough potential to try again, but not same same?