Lot's of f*king and drinking here Kayo. Makes me think of Jimmy Buffets "Let's Get Drunk and Screw"

Week 2:

So she no longer is with Jo, and she has had another short fling that didn't last, and she is single, and doing nothing expect try to survive by walking people's dogs and feeding their cats.

She has no direct plans, and was really really enthusiastic about talking with me.

So far I've only mentioned that I'd like for her to come and join me here in Amsterdam for a few days, and that I'm happy to invite her.

I guess that means less drugs for me. Oh well..... I get to get the girl.

Or not.

She refused, amicably, to get away. Citing a dog she has to walk.

Now, I am not the type to make an issue. I didn't even ask her if she couldn't arrange something else. I didn't persist other than to say that if she changes her mind she should let me know, by phone or by email.

I won't actually admit it, but I've been checking my email ten times a day for the last ten days.

She is not going to come out.

I've considered telling her, or at least sending her my email about the dilemma I sent my sister a few years ago, but I eally want to be together with her as I do this.

Basically, my mood right now is, well.... <deleted>!

The grand highway is crowded with lovers & searchers & leavers so eager to please & forget...

Pero si hubieras estado alli esta noche

como tantas otras veces yo habria

sabido que el rodeo tiene algun sentido y ahora

en cambio envilecia mi sentido

llamandolo rodeo...

Julio Cortazar-Rayuela

If you would have been there tonight

as many other nights I would have known

that my senseless detour would have been worth it

however now this silly detour degrade myself

by just being a simple detour

Edited February 17, 200620 yr by Glauka

Not attempting to dowse your fire at all- because it is sacredly wonderful- but too bad you never experienced love before you met your wife.... it may have added to your total life experience!

I did experience love before I met my fiancee, but it wasn't until I met her that I found really deep love. She is everything I have ever wanted in a woman and I feel such a completeness with her that it still amazes me.

Life before her was a black and white TV: it was fine and felt pretty good. Then I met her and discovered glorious, magnificent Technicolor. It just seems a shame that we didn't meet until I was 42, with grown-up children and the baggage from divorce. Having said that, she was much the same, and had we met years earlier we wouldn't have been the same people anyway.

As James Blunt said: "My life is brilliant."

Thankyou Sadman... and to all the James Blunt non-fans out there, I dedicate this to you.....

James Blunt - You're Beautiful (08-11-2005)

JAMES BLUNT

"You're Beautiful"

My life is brilliant.

My life is brilliant.

My love is pure.

I saw an angel.

Of that I'm sure.

She smiled at me on the subway.

She was with another man.

But I won't lose no sleep on that,

'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.

You're beautiful, it's true.

I saw your face in a crowded place,

And I don't know what to do,

'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,

As we walked on by.

She could see from my face that I was,

Flying high, [ - video/radio edited version]

######ing high, [ - CD version]

And I don't think that I'll see her again,

But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.

You're beautiful, it's true.

I saw your face in a crowded place,

And I don't know what to do,

'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.

You're beautiful, it's true.

There must be an angel with a smile on her face,

When she thought up that I should be with you.

But it's time to face the truth,

I will never be with you

Not attempting to dowse your fire at all- because it is sacredly wonderful- but too bad you never experienced love before you met your wife.... it may have added to your total life experience!

I did experience love before I met my fiancee, but it wasn't until I met her that I found really deep love. She is everything I have ever wanted in a woman and I feel such a completeness with her that it still amazes me.

Life before her was a black and white TV: it was fine and felt pretty good. Then I met her and discovered glorious, magnificent Technicolor. We've moved on to HD now.

It just seems a shame that we didn't meet until I was 42, with grown-up children and the baggage from divorce. Having said that, she was much the same, and had we met years earlier we wouldn't have been the same people anyway.

As James Blunt said: "My life is brilliant."

Words alone just don't do Stevie Wonder justice, the feeling he puts over in his voice is a rare quality now, but he keeps romance alive in a modern world where it is dying.

I was born in Lil' Rock,

Had a childhood sweetheart,

We were always hand in hand.

I was hightop shoes and shirt tails,

Suzy was in pig tails,

I know I loved her even then.

You know my papa disapproved it,

My mama boohooed it,

But I told them time and time again,

"Don't you know I was made to love her,

Built a world all around her"

Yah! Hey, hey, hey.

She's been my inspiration,

Showed appreciation

For the love I gave her through the years.

Like a sweet magnolia tree

My love blossmed tenderly,

My life grew sweeter through the years.

I know that my baby loves me,

My baby needs me,

That's why we made it through the years.

I was made to love her,

Worship and adore her,

Hey, hey, hey.

All through thick and thin

Our love just won't end,

'Cause I love my baby, love my baby. Ah!

My baby loves me,

My baby needs me,

And I know I ain't going nowhere.

I was knee high to a chicken

When that love bug bit me,

I had the fever with each passing year.

Oh, even if the mountain tumbles,

If this whole world crumbles,

By her side I'll still be standing there.

'Cause I was made to love her,

I was made to live for her, yeah!

Ah, I was made to love her,

Built my world all around her,

Hey, hey, hey.

Oo baby, I was made to please her,

You know Stevie ain't gonna leave her, no,

Hey, hey, hey.

Oo wee baby, my baby loves me,

My baby needs me,

Hey, hey, hey.

OO my baby loves me....

Then there's I Just Called... and Isn't She Lovely...

He's my hero.

Even though I started this thread off with a certain old lover on my mind - from many years ago (who still occasionally pops into my life with the effect minimal these days).... I can't stop thinking about another. He emailed today- from Columbia.

We met more than two years ago on Phuket. He stayed with me a few months then went to see his children in the Caribbean. I visited soon after. We had a great time, he and I - the kids liked me too. Nine months later he came back and spent another few months with me.

We now haven't seen each other for almost a year but we do keep in touch. I can't help the love I feel for him, but realise - since we live on the opposite sides of the planet - it will never really work! I guess I should be saying to him too..... "Goodbye my Lover......"

I meet lots of great guys but can't get this one out of my heart. Love is so cruel sometimes.

love is so cruel sometimes....

Yes it is, I agree instinctively.

However, is to get metaphysical on your ass, is it love that is cruel or how we deal *or don't deal) with our emotions that is cruel?

Are we not being cruel to ourselves more often than not?

love is so cruel sometimes....

Yes it is, I agree instinctively.

However, is to get metaphysical on your ass, is it love that is cruel or how we deal *or don't deal) with our emotions that is cruel?

Are we not being cruel to ourselves more often than not?

I can deal with it! I guess the melancholy will always be there... until the next one steals my heart. Now is that grown up or what?

khall, I'm not all that young.. and I'm quite voluptous.... Oops... Wrong thread...

Hey, Khall i know exactly what you are feeling. I loved him and lost him too. The crunching inside my rib cage is sickening, its snowing outside and looks nice but memories just go on and on and on.

Sorry if i am babbling

take care.....

Excuuuuuuuuuuse me Thaibebop – you gossip you!

I started this thread after receiving an SMS – out of the blue- from a past lover, the most intense love affair of my life. He does that from time to time, maybe so I won’t forget.

We first met 12 years ago. I was 29, he was 24. I’d never known anything like it. We were instantly drawn to each other. The world stopped spinning the moment I met him. It was so beautiful yet torturous as he was already married. He came and went from my life for many years, his marriage ended, we became lovers again and then he disappeared. The times we spent together were so ecstatically blissful, so perfect. And then he was gone.

Four years later, while I was preparing to move to Thailand, he tracked me down. Shock, horror he wanted to see me. I couldn’t say no. But I did give him an almighty earful. To this day, he still writes occasionally and sends me SMS messages just to remind me he is still on the planet. I guess he has grown now enough to realize how special I am. He confessed in an email that he loved me and always had but, of course for me now, it’s too late. I’ve moved on - but I still can’t help thinking about him from time to time.

So I started the thread while wondering how many others have a similar love story that they will never forget…..

Oh okay,

Can't help you here dear, so I will spectate on this one.

TBB - are you saying that you are married to the greatest love of your life? How beautiful!!!!

Yes. The girls that came before my wife I wouldn't piss on to put out, if ya know what I mean.

All joking aside, yes I am. I never loved anyone until my wife, then she gave me my daughter which just made me love her more. So, now I have two people I love. Even when it gets hard, life is still good.

Now that's a man who knows what to appreciate...Good for you m8

Well alexth, you obviously haven't see this then m8:

http://www.thaivisa.com/forum/index.php?sh...ic=57859&st=105

Edited March 3, 200620 yr by khall64au

oooohhh... You are evill.....

Who me..... ?Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh - NEVER! I occasionally give you guys what you give out.... in my wicked moments!

I hope TBB never sees this (do you think he will ever forgive me??)

love is so cruel sometimes....

Yes it is, I agree instinctively.

However, is to get metaphysical on your ass, is it love that is cruel or how we deal *or don't deal) with our emotions that is cruel?

Are we not being cruel to ourselves more often than not?

I think is the way we are dealing with our emotions what is cruel...

Few months ago i would have say(and actually i did it)...I will do anything for the person i love...Now I am not so sure...

well what i mean is that after being away from my ex-bf and thinking over about my relationship I am not sure if i am prepare to trust or give myself 100%. I guess that my past experiences has made believe that after all those happy moments were not so valuable to fight for...this last experience has made me very cynical...I have arrived to this conclusion some weeks ago where the problems of a friend relationship has made me reconsider my past love relationships...

I have been single for nearly 2 years...and even though i sometimes would like to meet someone who i can share those little things like intimancy moments or cuddles or kisses...

I then find myself thinking on all those moments where communication and personal interest became an issue...

I suppose i need to meet just the right one and then all this negative feelings will go away...

Now i content myself with watching love movies...

"But the love, this word... Moralist Horacio, fearful of passions without a reason of deep waters, disconcerted and churlish in the city where the love is called by all the names of all the streets, of all the houses, of all the flats, of all the rooms, of all the beds, of all the sleep, of all the forgetness or the memories..."

Edited March 3, 200620 yr by Glauka

this whole thread hsa been pm´d to Bops, and I´ve sent him a Jihad revenge army he can use for free...

this whole thread hsa been pm´d to Bops, and I´ve sent him a Jihad revenge army he can use for free...

Oh you dirty ratfink Kayo You'll pay for this.......... Karma is real you know!

I am not mad. I think he can tell the difference between what's real and a post. That was a thought I had before marriage, when I was a right dog.

Big Bad Billy is Sweet William now.

I am not mad. I think he can tell the difference between what's real and a post. That was a thought I had before marriage, when I was a right dog.

Big Bad Billy is Sweet William now.

Well change your bloody avatar then, Sweet William, cos Big Bad Billy scares me!

I dreamt I had received an email from Fiona Last night.

I wrote the full story in my notebook, just an hour ago, when I awoke. It was a beautiful, yet eternally sad, dream.

Actually,I`m not melancholic enough right now, so, maybe later I`ll post it.

The Ongoing Fiona Dilemma....

I am not mad. I think he can tell the difference between what's real and a post. That was a thought I had before marriage, when I was a right dog.

Big Bad Billy is Sweet William now.

Well change your bloody avatar then, Sweet William, cos Big Bad Billy scares me!

Sorry, Sis, marriage didn't change me.

I dreamt I had received an email from Fiona Last night.

I wrote the full story in my notebook, just an hour ago, when I awoke. It was a beautiful, yet eternally sad, dream.

Actually,I`m not melancholic enough right now, so, maybe later I`ll post it.

The Ongoing Fiona Dilemma....

OMG this thread is so old funny to see it back. So how ya lover? Who's Fiona BTW?

short memory Khall...

Read page 1

short memory Khall...

Read page 1

Page 1 refers back to February 2006 and I see NO mention of FIONA..........

40 posts per page right?

I see Donx reading this , is he gonna call his lover , Donz ?

Don`t know Chon, but I see , feasantplukka reading this, I hope he doesn`t call any of his cousins...

Don`t know Chon, but I see , feasantplukka reading this, I hope he doesn`t call any of his cousins...

Well, Nickerelastic is in here toooooooooooooo...........