Valium addiction...need help!

[al007]

its was worth the extra money to have some listen to my problem and understand it. Then knows how to explain me what is going on with my body and how to combat this. he didn't threat me like someone who is abusing a drug, but rather someone that was trapped. His treatment was based on that and I appreciate that.

Back for a second round next Monday. And this might be the last time. That depends how i react on the medication.

Sounds good to me, keep going and do not give up in the short term because of money

I have been through addiction, into and out of, you are doing well, it all takes time, your support system is also very important

[asialife]

Thanks for your support :-)

Yesterday, i had my second visit with the doctor in Bangkok. We discussed medication and I tried to asses what the minimum total of days I could use the prescribed medication could be. He had told me a month the first time I visited, but I don't see myself taking it that long. A week less would be great so i asked him. There we got into confusion, because he said "depending on how i feel, three weeks should be possible" So he prescribed medication for three weeks. It took me a few hours to realize that I already did one week so I should have only gotten twee weeks worth. Luckily I didn't buy all yet.

I'm feeling good most of the time. Now and then, I have pain in my left breast, near to the shoulder. The doctor said that it was normal. The muscle relaxers are softening those symptoms. I'm supposed to take 3 of those a day but from the 21 I got for a week, i still had 5 left. I guess I'm trying to go to fast and take as less medication as i can. I'll keep the correct dose this next week though.

There is also a feeling of dullness sometimes and short breath. This was all to be expected according to the doctor. My nervous system is the cause of all these problems but it will get better over time.

The antidepressant is for sleeping. it doesn't do anything for my mood either till a couple of weeks, but that is not why i am taking it. It does help me sleep and dream like crazy. I love my dreams at the moment. When i wake up i can still remember most of them.

Next week I'll give another update.

[Sheryl]

Glad to hear it is going well. Hang in there and resist the urge to "rush" things, follow the doc's advise about pace. He has treated thousands of people in your situation and knows what he is talking about.

[asialife]

Crazy week!

Not much problems from a symptom perspective. Medication is working fine. Saturday...yes again on Saturday, i felt the full force of flu symptoms that started a day earlier. I was even a bit delirious between 1 and 5 am Sunday morning. Some paracetamol really did the trick and got my fever down.

Normally, I wouldn't have gone to the hospital but this time I had to. Friday, I had also felt a cyst under my armpit and the combination of everything what was going on, i just had to be sure it was the flu. It was according to the doctor, so i went back home and back to bed where i have been since.

But the good news is that Saturday would have been a perfect excuse to start taking some Valium again but I didn't. It's not that I'm proud of that (it isn't normal to take it) but that i know I'm strong enough to get through something as scary as delirium and the anxiety that comes with that. For me this was a milestone. The next milestone will be when i stop medication. But I still feel the muscle spasms in my left chest, so I'll keep taking them for now.

[WitawatWatawit]

Mentally, you sound strong enough to deal with this, so I wish you all the best. Physically, it's not possible to say what is going to happen when you make the final leap, as everyone reacts differently. But at the very least, you will experience some problems - and they might be confusing and somewhat difficult to explain. I toughed it out, but up to you as to whether you go to the doctor for every ache and pain, which might be the wisest choice. I rationalized it by telling myself that my central nervous system was being reawakened after being suppressed and dulled for 3 years and was doing a systems analysis, testing each component of the body, activating it (and thus giving faux symptoms of various problems) and restoring it. Put like that, it gave me hope rather than despair, that things were being returned to normal. As I've mentioned before, the things that helped me through the worst of it were exercise, meditation and mindfulness. And a sense of humor, an important part of the rehabilitation. Best wishes.

[Sheryl]

You are doing well. Congrats and hang in there.

[aussiesnottie]

Hi I was on Benzos for nearly 10 years for anxiety and only finally got off them last year after a long experience. It took months then for the physical withdrawals like wanting to shake my arms and legs went away. They are the most horrible drug and the wurst withdrawal. But now I am finally finding my anxiety has gone away most of the time and I can even stand in front if people and talk and not get anxious which would have been impossible in the past.

It's been a long journey but I can try and help you if you want. Email me at [email protected]

I wish you the all the best of luck.

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