I had a bout of depression and doubt come on tonight, it buubled up and my ego was struggling to deal with it, shooting off all over the place looking for a reason why I was feeling this way. Once it had passed I began to wonder if it was just something that had just arisen because of the way it is and my ego was looking for a reason in its struggle to stop feeling it.

Your thoughts on the matter are welcome.

Trying to make sense of it can only be speculation and might end up fueling the ego.

I'd just move on without attachment.