In a flash it was over. Every laugh and every tear we shared - gone. How did it come to this? It was me. It was my fault all along. I collect your words, lay them out and study them. Reliving every emotion, from the moment I first laid eyes upon you to our first electrifying kiss to the bitter end. An entire spectrum of love and hate before my very eyes. I want to tell you so much that I've changed already and improved but you are already gone. My pleas fall on deaf ears and I am greeted by silence and the sorrowful rhythm of my beating heart. It was me. It was my fault all along. And I hurt you too much.

I can see but I am blinded by tears. I can walk but I stumble. Every thing around me reminds me of you, everything. If I could go back in time now, I would without hesitation. I think about you all the time. I stare at your visage and cry myself to sleep every night. The days turn into weeks and the weeks turn into months and months into years. Time means nothing to me now and yet it is all I have and so I wait. Waiting for an absolution that will never come. For you are already gone.

I miss you.

I miss you so very much and I love you.

I will never forget you baby.

Edited December 7, 200520 yr by Samart

Never mind, you'll get over it.

ah well, you win some, you lose some.

thats nice samart, but who are u talking about?

thats nice samart, but who are u talking about?

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a woman who was once special to me

'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all"

- Tennyson

Move along, don't dwell on the past

"A soapy massage is a man's best friend" - bkkmadness, 2005

thats nice samart, but who are u talking about?

a woman who was once special to me

Doh, I thought you were talking about me

thats nice samart, but who are u talking about?

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a woman who was once special to me

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Doh, I thought you were talking about me

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har no I wasn't but close enough...

"A soapy massage is a man's best friend" - bkkmadness, 2005

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True but I find soap a bit irritating

Thanks for sharing Samart.....

"A soapy massage is a man's best friend" - bkkmadness, 2005

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True but I find soap a bit irritating

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Bubble bath then!!

"A soapy massage is a man's best friend" - bkkmadness, 2005

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True but I find soap a bit irritating

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Great for women too of course !

"A soapy massage is a man's best friend" - bkkmadness, 2005

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True but I find soap a bit irritating

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Great for women too of course !

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Fun for the whole family?

"A soapy massage is a man's best friend" - bkkmadness, 2005

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True but I find soap a bit irritating

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Great for women too of course !

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I recommend No. 19 at Mirage Icey, not sure if she caters for ladies though but good luck with that.

Samart that was beautiful.

I nearly found myself hoping it was my ex tgf, having read some posts here, and writing to me.

Oh well.

Samart that was beautiful.

I nearly found myself hoping it was my ex tgf, having read some posts here, and writing to me.

Oh well.

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Thanks.

No sorry but it would be nice if it was your ex. My exgf was on here as well. I guess it sort of applies to anyone who's gone through the pain of it.

I hope some day someone writes something as beautiful about me...

but not when everything comes to and end...rather when everything starts... and keep on and on and on

Prince charming where the hel-l are you?

I am losing my patience here...

I hope some day someone writes something as beautiful about  me...

but not when everything comes to and end...rather when everything starts... and keep on and on and on

Prince charming where the hel-l are you? 

I am losing my patience here...

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Maybe Prince Charming overslept?

I hope some day someone writes something as beautiful about  me...

but not when everything comes to and end...rather when everything starts... and keep on and on and on

Prince charming where the hel-l are you? 

I am losing my patience here...

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Maybe Prince Charming overslept?

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Yes I think so...and may be he slept over snow-white´s...

Men !!!

Edited December 7, 200520 yr by Glauka

Move along, don't dwell on the past 

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Agreed

I Miss Ya

i miss my BF , a dentist in Washington, DC ..US .... always busy with his patients ..( i dig it..coz im a doc also )

but its hard to carry on ..

i wish he took a look at me now... forget all seminar

Thanks for the support.

I guess I will move along now even though it's hard and all. I feel better now somewhat , finally seeing her at last and knowing she's safe, sound and happy.

Maybe our paths will cross again in Thailand or US.

Edited December 7, 200520 yr by Samart

Thanks for the support.

I guess I will move along now even though it's hard and all.  I feel better now somewhat , finally seeing her at last and knowing she's safe, sound and happy.

Maybe our paths will cross again one day in Thailand or US.

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My mom gave me that trite but sound advice when I and my first true love broke up --I was completely heartbroken and she said "What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger". Well, it is an old one but certainly true. If I hadn't had that relationship and learned from my mistakes then I wouldn't have been able to have such a successful relationship with my husband.

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My mom gave me that trite but sound advice when I and my first true love broke up --I was completely heartbroken and she said "What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger". Well, it is an old one but certainly true. If I hadn't had that relationship and learned from my mistakes then I wouldn't have been able to have such a successful relationship with my husband.

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Wish it were that simple. Sure you getter stronger and learn from your mistakes but at a great price. It's quite disheartening. The victory is rather hollow in the end. I don't think I will ever find someone like that again.

You don't. You find someone different but more suitable to you --if you have learned anything that is.

My first love was a great guy but would we have lasted? I doubt it. I would have to say that my love for my husband is deeper and more satisfying. And we celebrated our 16th wedding anniversary a few months ago so I would have to say it is definitely far more successful too.

You don't. You find someone different but more suitable to you --if you have learned anything that is.

My first love was a great guy but would we have lasted? I doubt it. I would have to say that my love for my husband is deeper and more satisfying. And we celebrated our 16th wedding anniversary a few months ago so I would have to say it is definitely far more successful too.

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true I know, it just irks me now that's all because you're thinking of all the possibilities.

If you love her so much, don't you think you would feel better if you go find her and make up for what you did to hurt her instead of letting time go by in grief? Is she already married to someone else? Dead?