It helps to learn what it's like to have a Gf or real relationship. Please learn those skills. A massage shop session is not going to teach any relationship skills or how to interact with a woman in a normal setting. Learn to have genuine relationships that include sex.
Some posts feel narcissistic (having an excessive or erotic interest in oneself and one's physical appearance). Are you focusing on yourself a lot, working out, biking, having a nice apartment, etc. and your own needs in general, but not giving back to others except when they come to a head in a massage shop session?